When the terror comes

I look right at it

But first I ask for help

To see it properly

To understand cause from effect

To know Truth from obfuscation 

With the terror comes

Crushing heart pains

Guilt in such magnitude

It stops the breath

A brain freeze, worse

Than one caused by an icy drink

Why does the terror come

Upon waking 

One second after consciousness 

Is it because the mind is most receptive

And open to Spirit lessons

Before dawn starts the day

We judge when terror comes

Believing it’s because of sin

And a cause of future pain

But we are wrong

We are never upset

For the reasons we think 

Whenever terror comes

I will be grateful

It reminds me why I am human

To work out my salvation

To separate perception from reality 

And to do the work of going home